Happy New Year! This post is going to be like most of my life- all over the place, and yet somehow all connected. Hope that’s ok with you:)
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I wore the heck out of my red lipstick this week to places it normally doesn’t go- snowboarding, snowshoeing, cross-country skiing, and snowmobiling. My beautiful sisters were good sports and wore it with me!
I also took part in my very first photo shoot (outside of being a bridesmaid…which I’ve done quite a few times;). My friend Kaitlyn is a photographer, and asked if she could take my picture. I was uncomfortable with the idea until she said Maggie (a pro at this stuff) would come along and that we could do a DecemRed inspired shoot! Kaitlyn is talented, sweet, and makes the whole process really fun! Check her out!
The End of 2012!
Today is the last day of 2012 and my Decemred challenge. The irony of this mini adventure and its timing couldn’t be more perfect. When I started, I had no idea what would come of it, but figured I had very little to lose. As I mentioned in my last DecemRed update, many of you had reservations about wearing red lipstick, wondering if it you could pull it off. I’ve realized over the last month that my own issue isn’t with how it looks, but with how much bright lips stand out. They feel more showy and “look at me!” than I am used to or enjoy. I’d like to think of myself as a confident person, but what this year, and even a small tube of red lipstick has shown me, is there are still plenty of places where I’d rather stick to the background.
As I reflect on 2012, or auld lang syne (times gone by), it has been a year of mustering some courage and putting myself out there in more ways than one. The book, this blog, red lipstick, and even the photo shoot have all been uncomfortable and sometimes painful steps towards pursuing a dream. I never realized how much I enjoyed keeping my thoughts to myself and living what I refer to as my “normal life” …until I started putting it all out there- typos, awkward sentences, and embarrassing stories and all.
When I told my brother Matt that I liked the normal life, he said he thought I was selling myself short. I’ve thought a lot about his words and they remind me of this quote:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” -Marrianne Williamson
So, for 2013, I’m going to just keep putting it out there, especially when I’d rather not, in hopes that it gives some of you permission to do the same. If even just one of you felt like you could shine a little brighter or take a step of courage because of one of my small steps, it will all be worth it! …I tend to think if we aren’t a little uncomfortable, challenged, or scared, then we aren’t really living anyway.
Happy New Year! Be safe and have fun tonight! Don’t forget to #decemred those red lips! I have a 31 Bits necklace to send home with one of you tomorrow:)