Happy August! And how did it get to be August?
I’ve decided August is the strangest of summer months because in California, it’s usually the hottest, so by my standard- the most summery. However, every year September manages to creep fall in early with its back-to-school commercials and fall clothing lines. Did you know I literally could not find a bathing suit to buy the other day? All sold out. Something is wrong with the world when you can’t buy a bikini in the middle of summer.
But that’s the way we are.
We are always looking ahead, preparing for what’s next, attempting to control tomorrow. I suppose this isn’t always a bad thing, except that lately I’ve been working on enjoying the here and soaking up the now.
Last week I found myself in three conversations that I thought related. They all boiled down to the same thing:
She wants A.
Without A she is stuck in B.
How does she get A or at least move on to C as soon as possible?!
As I sat listening, I thought about my own version of this equation. For me, it involves church. In December I left a wonderful church community. (Yes, I’m annoyed I’m perpetuating the Christian over-use of the word,..but it is helpful) I had friends I connected with, a part to play, and gracious people a stage ahead of my own willing to invest in me.
And I miss it.
While visiting these people over the weekend I experienced that ache. You know, the one that says, “Dangit! I want that back! Where can I find it again? How can I recreate it right away?”
Thankfully, this line of thought didn’t get too out of hand because as I said, I’ve been working on this. Rather than focusing on A or hurrying to C, I’m getting better at asking myself what good or necessary thing is in the B. Where my tendency has been to rush to get what I want, I now try and figure out why I’m in the now. What does God have for me in my have-not? What would I truly miss out on if I actually could skip ahead?
If you’ve ever swam in the ocean, you know it’s best to relax and go with the flow when the waves crash around you. Fighting them doesn’t help and they eventually pass. I’m finding this a helpful image for living in the now (while swimming in my new suit. Target had my back). No season lasts forever and there is something important in each one.
It’s August for a reason. September can wait.
What about you? What helps you live in the now?